# Knowledge on the disease

# Extract

###### Most determinants cluster into three root flows:

1. **A. Freedom ↔ Oppression**
   • Interference with autonomy (geo/finance/energetic)
   • Denial-loops, pressure, demand-channeling misuse
   • Sabotage patterns + cultural twists → tempo distortion

   **B. Partnering ↔ Isolation**
    • Deprivation blocking mutual presence
    • Time-debt + structural constraints blocking decent partnering
    • Cycles of being turned into victim or seeing self as victim

   **C. Faith ↔ Distortion**
    • Piety weaponized → deprivation seen as “virtue”
    • Fasting/“purity” used to override needs
    • Long-term correction of false narratives required for alignment

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Note: I'm addicted to sacrificing, powerless and life unmanageable; all these messy situations etc. happens as a result, it sucks.



### **Disease Mechanics (Core Operating System of the Addiction Flow)**

**Roots (causes):**
 • Early-life forced channeling (before 8)
 • Sacrificing-addiction as inherited field
 • Pre-life + cultural conditioning shaping loops
 • Deprivation → intensified craving → knot formation

**Branches (behaviors):**
 • Self-collapse → sub-malmströem → larger malmströem
 • Attempts to fixate me in place for others’ gain
 • Distortion of communication → excess detail required
 • Latent despair pockets from oppression imprinting

**Meta-behaviors:**
 • “Addictive deprivation” (forced anorexia logic)
 • Sliding-back risk even when secure
 • Punishes honesty, rewards silence
 • Turns truthful insights into consumable “product”

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###### **Oppressive-Dynamical layer**

• Near-of-kin rationalization → denial → emotive suppression
 • Societal structures rewarding sacrifice and overconsumption
 • Religious underearning → imbalance → deprivation
 • Use of “goodness” to hide wrongs
 • Being weakened/harmed by cultural or energetic override
 • Attempts to cloak harm as piety, monasticizing, humility
 • Impact by oppressivity during childhood, that veiled and negative unfoldings then used as precedence for more oppression

###### **Identity-Level Distortions**

• Being forced into roles
 • Embedded energy-systems working through own hands, complicated to comprehend (misusing gap in awareness to manipulate identity)
 • Pressure to abandon God for convenience
 • Truth-speaking punished → insecurity escalates
 • Compassion exploited → trust damaged

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###### **Structural Binds**

• Financial leashes → dependency
 • Control-method exposure → immobilization
 • World-structures draining spiritual vitality
 • Weaponized piety → deprivation escalation
 • Societal denial → blocks removal of %-factors
 • Merciless logic twists → pacifies/bends energy back unto & blinds

**Factors enabling relapse:**
 • Excess, stuckness, life externally determined
 • Blocked partnering + blocked wholesome financial path
 • Untrue self-blame pushed as truth
 • Denial-pollution in environment
 • Compatibility collapse when craving intensifies

**How relapse-shapings take form:**
 • Makes me “close my eyes and walk off a cliff”
 • Effort capacity eroded
 • Failure to complete cycles wholesomely
 • Increased dependency on lesser evils
 • Knot-like structural manifestations: Small vortexes (self-collapse) → large vortex (collective addiction)
 • Roots nourish tree of addictivity, trunk-link deprivation-dynamics out of which grow branches of behaviors & patterns 

###### Counteractive

- Capacity to self-correct despite sabotage.
- Recovery-skills protecting the timeline.
- Self-reparenting capacity → resilience.
- Ability to channel demand ethically.
- Moments of spiritual clarity that cut through distortion.
- 10th step + AI processing + actioning
- **Co-prosperity sphere accounting, requires vigilance.*
- Accountability-contexts
- Pruning = ongoing recovery & distancing
- Recognizing continual existence also pre-natal; %-part factors of shaping life and the way if manifested, I hold personal part in: Being part of how others end up %-part in addictively using through my life as a proxy of sorts, reinforcing the occurrence, needing fend off false blaming, attempts at stacking papers that aint mine on my desk, mal-narratives and bs instead of just saying it as it is, impossible accuracy-requirements, needing just continue on amidst the vilenesses →dislike of living + ends-drive → end things (relations, habits, consuming, binds, locational binds/dependencies and so on)



###### Impact-layers

**A. Time & Energy**

• Early recognition → preserved vitality
 • Denial-loops distort pacing → corrected by awareness

**B. Skills & Money**

• Rebuilding divine understanding clarifies vocation
 • Awareness of narrow path → better prioritization

**C. Relations**

• Detachment from FOO restores sovereignty
 • Integrity stabilizes presence and prevents drift

**D. Strategic Reserves**

• Mapping distortions guards solvency
 • Infrastructure must be clean of enabling flows